Philosophy

Sometimes when I feel extra smart or extra depressed I attempt to read philosophy. By philosophy I mean I go to the Wiki page for Slavoj Zizek or Hegelianism (are these even considered philosophy? Maybe I just mean whenever I try to expand my mind) and try to understand it.

At first reading it gives me a fuzzy feeling, like it’s so incredible that another human being has actually thought this whole thing through. But after awhile I just stop understanding. It’s as if my brain has reached it’s limit and is no longer able to comprehend. It’s as if I’ve reached the point where I will just never be able to grasp it. I used to think of this as my ‘threshold’ and tell myself that one day I will experience enough of life to understand what is being written. But it doesn’t change. I think maybe that is my limit, and I should just stick to things that I understand. Like Robot Unicorn Attack and Philip K Dick.

And sometimes I just find myself bored by it. Bored. And then I feel guilty (Catholic guilt? Hippie guilt? Pretentious intellectual guilt?), but it doesn’t last long. Who ask them to make it so boring? Cannot list it out in simple point form is it?